I don't cut anymore!
Because I'm checked every night.
I don't even glance at sharp things!
Because my razor was taken away.
Because there's a lock on the liquor cabinet.
I don't even ask for a taste!
Because I'm not allowed in bars.
I'm off the medication!
Because it was hidden somewhere.
I don't even think about overdose!
Because I'm on antidepressants.
I don't bash my head into the wall!
Because there's a camera in my room.
The blood stains are faded!
Because a professional was hired to get the walls and floor clean.
I don't have suicidal thoughts anymore!
Because I'm on happypills.
I don't even try to kill myself!
Because I'm under constant supervision.
I don't drink the chemicals!
Because the kitchen sink was emptied.
The bleach doesn't have any effect on me!
Because believe me, I've tried.
What does that even mean?
To be free, of the dirty habits that used to haunt you?
You gave them up, now you're clean.
Or you were blocked off.