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I'm sicI'm sick.

I'm sick to my god-forsaken soul,
And can't get out of this hell hole,
And still, you say I should stay.

I'm nothing.

I've nothing left to give or share,
I have this feeling you don't care,
But without you I wouldn't last a day.

I'm fucked-up.

I've got all this in my screwed-up head,
I won't deny I wish I were dead,
Why are you lying to me?

I'm crying.

I keep crying for help and love,
And now I'm finally done,
What is it about me that you won't let me be?

I didn't mean to hurt no one.

I don't want to hurt you,
Not that I don't want or love you,
But you all need to stay away.

I'm sorry.

I'm sorry for being an attention who
Me?I'm going to tell the truth,
Instead of telling a lie.
I want to die.
And trust me, I've tried.

Just sitting here feeling worthless,
It seems words do nothing,
I'll just keep cutting.
Maybe try something.

I put on a smile for you,
To try to make you happy,
But it's plain to see,
I'll never be what you want me to be.

Why am I  so  important?
Why do I need to stay here?
And continue to live in fear
That my end may near?

Why am I needed?
Why do you even care?
You say I shouldn't dare,
Why not, I've got nothing left to share.

Why do I live?
I live for you,
And what you do,
And I hope at least some of you does for me too.

Why don't I unders
SorryI'm sorry.
Sorry I saying i miss you so much.
Sorry for saying 'I love you' over and over.
Sorry for ignoring you and such.
Sorry for being selfish.
Sorry for being stupid,and stubborn.
Sorry for not believing I'll be missed.
Sorry for pushing away your kind words.
Sorry for not believing anyone loves me.
Sorry to say that it hurts.

I'm sorry.
Sorry for feeling like nothing.
Sorry for drifting away.
Sorry for, everyday, not bringing you something.
Sorry for not being nice.
Sorry for calling you all names.
Sorry for being like ice.
Sorry for leaving.
Sorry for saying goodbye.
Sorry for saying this is the way I'm being.

I'm sorry.
Sorry for c
TruthHow do you see me?
The way I give myself off?
The way I wish I could be?

The person is different,
They aren't me.
Maybe this, is what you see:

A girl obsessed with killing and gore,
Integrating herself with psychos,
A girl who's looking for blood, more and more;

A girl who enjoys creepy people out,
Smiling and threatening slow painful deaths,
Being loud, just to scream and shout;

A girl who wants horror and chills,
Watching gorey R-rated movies,
Just to give herself thrills;

A girl who takes violent music literally,
And uses them for future inspiration....
But that's not me. I'm sorry.

Let's revise that, the person you know,
To the litt
Past the point of no return isPast the point of no return is
Being shocked when your scars fade away,
And jump at the chance to replace them,
At the chance to watch the blood drip fast onto the sheets
At the chance of the holding the relief of the knife handle.

Past the point of no return is
Drinking to the bottom of the bottle,
Of London Dry Gin,
And not realizing it until you finish,
Not realizing it until you cough up blood,
Not realizing it until you're over the sink throwing up.

Past the point of no return is
Pouring out more pills than you know you can take,
And swallowing them by the handful,
Swallowing them and sitting there still in pure agony,
Swallowing them
Texting saved my lifeSome people say there's no emotion,
Behind the texts and messages.
That they're fake.
Or maybe,
Hallucinations that our own brain makes.

Just words, no more and no less
Than things sad that don't matter.
Repeated messages of affection,
That are pieces of shit,
And nothing more than.

They are wrong,
And never has any one ever been so wrong.
Those little texts that make me smile,
Instead of making my cry,
Make me want to stay aw while.

Those inspirational stories,
Stories that say get better.
That is what counts,
Not how it is said,
But to what purpose it amounts.

It's saved me from killing myself,
Not to say I won't try again.
But it kept

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:iconfreezingsteelmurder:
Why are you laughing?
Why are you smiling?
Dancing?
Singing?
Why?
Are you doing it to torture me?
Are you smiling because I'm hurt?
Are you dancing at my pain?
Why are you laughing?
Why are you laughing?
Are you laughing at me?
Why are you laughing at me?



dah, another vent turned-oh-ill-keep-this-but-i-have-no-markers-so-ill-paint-with-nail-polish thingy. but the blood looks pink. and, i actually put mature content on this, for a reason. wow....i never put filters on my stuff :( oh well

and , i do, have scars like that.


im such a selfish bitch.
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~thechosenonee1 Jan 21, 2013  Student Writer
You're not selfish, but I can't saying anything about the bitch part... We're all abishus. And I love the drawing
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~Freezingsteelmurder Jan 21, 2013  Student General Artist
all i ever think about is what to do with myself. i want to think about helping others. i do. i try. i want and try to make myfriends happy, but, when i get home, it just turns into thoughts about myself.

bad thoughts. but its all me. why am i so selfish?


lol, we are all bitches, in some sort of way xD
thankies yous
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~thechosenonee1 Jan 21, 2013  Student Writer
Mariah is a LENAR. Idk y but I just wanted to say that xD
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~Freezingsteelmurder Jan 21, 2013  Student General Artist
lawl, YES SHE ES! she pretends to be nice and stupid, but shes not >:3
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~thechosenonee1 Jan 21, 2013  Student Writer
Lamp
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~Freezingsteelmurder Jan 21, 2013  Student General Artist
you know whatd be a really sucky superpower?

to summon a lamp. once.
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~thechosenonee1 Jan 21, 2013  Student Writer
You know what would be even worse? To summon half a lamp. Once.
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~Freezingsteelmurder Jan 21, 2013  Student General Artist
ohmigerd YOURE RIGHT. half a lamp....hahahahaha XD
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