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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

RelapseIt’s like counting
Saturn’s rings,
hash marks
along your limbs -
remembering a time
when

‘just one more’

made you feel better.

- & you’re sitting there
wondering why
Draco, stuck in limbo
always looks like he’s

falling.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

WorthlessWorthless,
the name that cuts like a knife,
Me,
it's all that you see inside,
My heart,
is breaking with every breath I take
The lies,
the only thing I can't seem to face.

Battle in my MindEat.
Don't eat.
Take it easy.
Work out until you pass out.
Get help.Tell someone.
Keep it a secret. It's only for you and me.
You're perfect.
You're worthless.
You're beautiful.
You're disgusting.
Why won't you listen?
They don't understand.
Let me help you.
You don't understand.
Show me.
No!
I love you..

In The Daylight

In The Daylight

A false downfall
An unexpected revival

Sunset to moonset
Shining through darkness

Life...redefined
Death...redesigned

In the valley of promises- I will fear no end
On the brink of weakness- I will ascend
-
Roads of the toughest
Paths of the darkest

I conditioned my flawed limits
So fearful memories won't be paralytic

I had to raise my own spirit
Strength and endurance become so vivid

A chance for change / A moment of fate
A time to make peace / A brief feeling of creed
A sealing of my slate / A silencing of my mistakes
A secret ready to be freed / A chain soon-to-be incomplete

Pain and peace are infinite
Judge the wrat

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

wallflower clippingsthere's scar tissue in her throat,
swollen around the words she never said;
dark rings around her eyes
like planets unremembered, and
a staleness to her touch,
the crystalline Dead Sea.

she's living like a story
that's already been told
"if no one loved you
would you mean anything at all?"

in that moment,
we forget to exist.

We are the King and Queen of Broken DreamsStanding still in a mine field, staring at all we have left.
We were so young, we didn’t stop to think.
Now we’re in a car crash, teetering on the brink.
If you were to leave me now, I don’t know what I’d do.

It was a whirl wind romance,
A light when all was black, a spark of something when all was bleak.
You swept me off my feet and made me feel brand new.
I thought we could live forever and I’m certain you did to.

We built a house without foundations
And now we’re falling down,
Everything’s crumbling around us, time slipping through out fingertips.
People used to walk past us but they were to drunk to see,
That our lives are coming apart around us, there is no light as far as we can see.

There was no fire to start with,
Just two broken things, the world had left behind.
The casualties of other people’s dreams of power, money and control,
Spat out onto the curb to rot away and die.
We never stood a chance or so

Falling off the EdgeDo you know what it feels like?
To nearly fall off the edge,
but not quite...
just so that you're dangling;
clinging for your worthless life
lest it fall into the sea of loneliness.
Your callused, pink fingers turning
to a shade of purplish-red of pain
as it does it best to hold on.

Splash.

In the sea of loneliness,
everything is crisp, translucent.
There is nothing around you,
you are alone...
unlike other people,
you have no one
clamouring to save you;
you have no one
diving in to get you out.

There is no point
screaming for help,
you will only waste
the little time and air you have left.
You only have the darkness
of the sea envelop

Honesty Written

from the

heart.

No eraser.

Her SideTomorrow she'll be gone,
but what can you say?
Nothing can help her.
The pain won't go away.

But she would've stopped,
you could've said no.
That's what she wanted,
someone to say don't go.

That someone wanted her,
or at least would try.
That someone would grieve
if she were to die.

But you just stared,
nodding your head,
and she realized the truth
with a feeling of dread.

No one wanted her.
No one cared.
Not even you,
with the the love you shared.

So she said good-bye,
and you watched her leave.
She may have had the rope,
but now you can't breathe.

PerfectEver had the feeling where you can't stop looking at a picture?
Your gorgeous face makes me smile
Go weak at the knees
Makes me giggle like a little girl

Those morning texts
All day conversations
Random silly things like that
Make me smile

I see the led light flash the colours I've set for when I get a message from you
My heart flutters
My cheeks flush
I go deaf to the world when I'm reading a message from you

If your down
I'm always there for you
I know you don't want to worry me
I know you want me to smile
But I'm always here for you
No matter how you feel
I'd prefer to help
Than for you to be down

Your gorgeous eyes
Are mesmerising
You

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You Have No Right

by ~Freezingsteelmurder, Feb 11, 2013, 6:02:50 PM
Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

You have no right to leave me here
Alone in all this shit!
You said you cared, and you realize
And don't care anymore, that i can't take much more of it!

You said you'd be there for me,
And I believed you.
You threw me on the ground,
After all we've been through!

I can't remember why I thought I could love you,
That you'd even be my friend!
You said we'd be together,
Until the very end.

And here I am, sitting here alone,
I promised I wouldn't leave.
But, if I did,
Would you even grieve?

Hell no, I'm not the person you knew anymore
I'm not even the person you thought I was!
Why did you leave me in this,
'Just because'?

You make me think every night,
'Do you even know'?
Of course not, I tried to be happy for you,
And not to let it show.

Well, I'm done with acting for you,
For playing all your fucking parts!
You think I'm a murderer,
That I've won over all these hearts!

You think I'm happy,think again,
But you think you have it worse.
You're the one that's going forward,
I'm the one in reverse.

I've had enough of you,
And keeping up with this big lie.
It's not worth it to try and love you,
If I'm going to sit here and cry.

Cry over what we could have been,
And what I thought you wanted me to be!
I'm not that bloodthirsty bitch,
Shut up and leave me be!

That's exactly what you did,
You left me here to die.
You don't realize what you're doing to me,
Making me hold on to this pathetic lie!
Maybe one day you'll know, after I'm good and gone,
What I was feeling inside.
How much you hurt me, how much I wanted to love you....
You'll find the truth within the lie.

You Have No Rightby ~Freezingsteelmurder

Literature / Poetry / Emotional / Free Verse

another vent poem. :/
dont you hate when you realize all of this?

MEGGY
CHEYCHEY
THIS IS NOT ABOUT YOU GUYS
just though id say that

again, sorry for any spelling or grammar issues.

~chancerox Feb 12, 2013 Hobbyist Digital Artist

AKSDF;ASLDKFAJW4LKRSZDG;AJ;WLKRESFJCX;GLKAJSF;K

yes.yesyes.yess.yesyes. not even okay how much yes.

~Freezingsteelmurder Feb 12, 2013 Student General Artist

yes is a good word :3

thankies~<3

!VLoneV Feb 12, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

All I can say is wow...I feel this completely...

*Scriddles Feb 11, 2013

;~; If this is about me in some way, I'm sorry if I haven't been commenting more...

~Freezingsteelmurder Feb 11, 2013 Student General Artist

no
its not about any of you guys!
youre like, one of the people that comments most, too.....

this was about a person i know irl who i thought was a friend

*Scriddles Feb 11, 2013

Oh. Well I'm sorry about how that "friend" of yours hurt you. :c

~Freezingsteelmurder Feb 11, 2013 Student General Artist

she just suddenly..left us(me and another friend)

*Scriddles Feb 11, 2013

I'm sorry about that... you guys deserve better than that.

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